The TinMan Get's a New Heart Volume II

Well part two of "Kindsay the TinMan" gets a new heart happened this week. A year and 56 days after the first attempt, my Cardiac Wizard of sorts, Dr. Z, performed my second ablation and so far, so good. No irregualr rhythms, just a very delfated version of myself. But i'm so thankful to God, my doctor and my family for where I'm at right now health wise. My parents took me hostage post surgery and decided after the doc's approval to pack my little heart bandaged self and head to the beach house for some rest and relaxation (ie....get Kbg away from anything that would allow her to work and not get better). I have to admit, it's been quite the medicine I needed. Sitting outside in the sunshine, taking 3 hour naps, eating carb heavy food that I shouldn't eat, watching movies, soaps and beautiful reruns of Sex and the City. On the hard side of this whole thing....my energy tank has been on "E" since Tuesday and I feel very opposite of my true self. Give me a few more days and I'll be back to my old self....actually hopefully a new improved TinMan Kindsay.

I continue to work hard on the job front and will continue that effort on Monday when I return from my Beach Medicine for Heart Surgery. That's a for real prescription. I would prescribe it for anyone interested (minus the heart surgery of course). I think I've had enough of that in one year for everyone. But alas, I sit here tonight very thankful that it looks like my precious God has given me a new heart. I am going to take it and embrace it in the very literal and also the emotional extent that I can. After almost 2 years of fighting heartbreak in the physical and emotional sense of the word, I truly believe my time has come.....to start anew......to learn from my scars that show how far I've come and embrace the life God has planned for me and my new heart. And do it in a way that allows me to remember where I've come from, yet be open for what's to come. To protect it, but allow it to breathe and live life with this new energy that I can feel is within me (once the drugs wear off). :)

So in closing tonight, as my heart beats in the most beautiful rhythm....steady.....strong......

I look forward to the day that the reason my heart skips is not because I have a physical problem, but because I have found true reason to let it live and skip a beat for the excitement of a new day and experience ahead.